Sorry for moving again, but I have another LJ. I don't think it'll be any more active than this one, and almost all of the entries will be public anyway (with comments open to everyone) so you can look and not add if you want:

tsukimei

Anyway, hope you all had a wonderful summer. See you around!

Totally stolen from xeiryn - Who, by the way, seems to be a super cool person and I should get to know her better. And besides, she got me to post an entry!

1. Go to flickr.com.
2. Type in your answer.
3. Only use the first page.
4. Copy the html and paste it on here.

What is your name?


What month were you born?


What is your favorite TV show?


What's your favorite color?


What's your favorite movie?


What is your favorite book?


What are you most afraid of?


What's your favorite time of the day?


What's your favorite accessory?


One word to describe yourself?


How old will you be on your next birthday?


Favorite food?


Town you were born in?


What are you listening to?


What is your middle name?


How do you feel?

Happy birthday, y0naki_x3 !
(aka Yonaki on Gaia)

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I meant to post this earlier, but apparently I accidentally saved it into another entry. I don't know how that happened.

Break has been good so far, even though I spent yesterday and most of today doing nothing productive. I played some Trickster, trying to collect the very cute Thanksgiving/fruit sets but the monster quests irritate me to no end. I then played some Maple Story yesterday and today to kind of talk to some friends I only see on Maple, and to level myself and train a new friend (who's from Gaia).

After trying to straighten out some plans today, I met up with some friends downtown. Our original plan was to go ice skating, but some refused to go while others didn't get their parents' permission. It was a bummer, but I think we collectively had a good time.

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For anyone who has never driven downtown or at least ridden in a car that's trying to navigate downtown, it's hell. Or at least that's the case here in San Jose. Now onto the actual entry.

Erica and I volunteered to prepare donation barrels for the Salvation Army. We were late (due to getting lost downtown and me initially showing up to her place on time - I hitched a ride, you see), but it was very fun. The staff were so friendly and easy to get along with, and I really want to volunteer again. We (the volunteers collectively) finished our service in half the time we were expected to, so Erica and I had an hour and a half to kill.

Despite getting lost driving around earlier, she and I decided to have a walk to a Starbucks that was spotted earlier. I was a bit nervous about wandering downtown, but we found the Starbucks without any harm (we were unsure of the location, even! We were driving around in so many circles I wasn't sure if a Starbucks was near the Salvation Army place.) There, I bought coffee for Erica and I myself had a drink and a sandwich. I was hungry because I hadn't eaten anything anything all day. There, we spent an hour or so just talking. It was, to put simply, very pleasant. I wish I had this opportunity to share time and personally have a good conversation with more people.

We started heading back to the Salvation Army ten minutes until one. Erica and I took another walk around the block after we learned Erica's father was only starting to come pick us up.

I used to think others were crazy when they wished for more hours in a day. Now I believe those words were all too true. I'm still in disbelief that the second grading period ends next Wednesday. I did not notice the last four weeks had slipped on by, and I'm not ready for the end of the semester.

On another note, is the difference in my attitude apparent? I've been feeling I'm losing touch with other people, and I feel conflicted when I'm with someone else. I don't like people. I'm easily irritated when I'm with others, but I desperately long for company. I want someone I can open up and talk to, someone I can trust. I'm trying to think back to how I used to be able to open to others easily, but I can't recall how I did it. However, I'm not saying I don't trust everyone. There are a selected few who I feel comfortable around and talk to me on a regular basis. Those people I cherish with all my heart, because they've always been a friend to me. I'm sorry if you're one of these people and happen to be reading this; I can't find a way to talk to you, even though I do trust you. Do I make any sense?

One more thing. I've realized that I probably used the term "friend" to loosely associate myself with other people. I really don't know anything about my self-proclaimed friends, and it's beyond my knowledge if they think of me as a friend, too. I've been calling some people "friends" for years on end, but lately I've been feeling I only use it as a label to stamp on individuals I happen to share a location with. It's really sad and harsh to say this, but I wonder if I really had any friendship with some of them. I don't relate to most of them, and I honestly don't recall any good memories we shared during the times we've been "friends". I don't know if it's them or me; am I too distant and aloof to talk to? Am I intimidating? Are my friends just not talkative? Or do they just not care? Yeah, the reality of it all kind of hit me in the face when it was implied all of us were boring. I always knew we were not the most interesting people, but it was actually confirmed by a childhood friend, and now I feel we'd lost her because we didn't do anything.

To a certain someone who might be reading this: I know, I haven't been a very good friend, either. I believe I've thrice backed out of something. I'm sorry this all sounds so horrible, but it honestly doesn't apply to you in any way.

Just making a quick note to myself - I got my job advancement in Trickster today. <3 Yay cute little bard!

Fanime~! Pre-registration is open! Gogogo.

It's been a strange week so far, and that kind of made me strange (or more strange then usual), as well. I don't really know why I've been upset the last two days, but I'm very happy it's all over now. I hope you'll all excuse me for my weird habits. The weather's been somewhat screwy because the anticipated rain never comes, which is very fortunate for me.

Today was a late start collaboration day along with the PSAT, so it's a bummer we had to go to school at the same time and go to most of our classes after testing. I was seriously considering on backing out on the PSAT last minute. Anyway, I was relieved it wasn't as cold in the gym as it was last year, but the testing environment was still very much nerve-wrecking and dreadful. The leading counselor wouldn't stop his yelling that made me jump in my seat, and he made me feel very stupid.

Mm... what else. Other than having a few tests here and there, my teachers are cutting our classes a lot of slack because the first grading period's grades were due today. Which is a nice break from last week (which felt like the longest week thus far; ask anyone), I suppose. I'm happy to say I know my grade in five classes (French is all a mystery to me, but I believe I'm finding out tomorrow). Can you believe I managed a 100% average in history? Me neither. *boasts about it while she still can*

( NTS + Trickster and screenies )

*sigh* Really trying to learn and understand how to do math is really time consuming. So far, I've been able to figure things out with the help of two friends because the book doesn't help me, but I don't know. I wonder if I have a learning disability or if I'm at the right cognitive learning stage for Math Analysis. There's a psychology term for ya.

Speaking of psychology, we took our test today. It's the first test, and we haven't had any quizzes up until this test, so I didn't know what to expect. I'm pretty confident I did well, even if I was a bit skeptical on the first page of the test.

This Friday marks the end of the first grading period. Wow. I don't know what to say. I kind of hope this week will go by quickly and painlessly, as I feel my classes had been particularly long for the past two days (we didn't get Columbus Day off yesterday. Boo.) The PSAT is next Wednesday, and I'm not looking forward to that. Just... meh.

I'm waiting for a holiday~

Distance makes the heart grow fonder... or does it really?

Question to ponder. I'm the type who loses connections with others easily, and I get over people by being separated from them. Distance makes me forget. I also need to be reassured from time to time that I am loved, as I'm insecure. I really can't say this to anyone, so I'm writing it here.

Sometimes, I wish I can choose who I want to talk to. My buddy list is slowly starting to expand again as more people IM me on a daily basis, but I really don't enjoy talking to some people as I used to. If you're reading this, let me assure you that it's not you. I want to sign on invisible, but some people need to talk to me more than others, and I want them to be able to come to me if they need to. Is it bad that I like talking to certain people more than others? I'm just really tired of the repetition or meaningless conversations.